I feels as though i have sort of been abandoning this blog and i really shouldn't be. alot has been going on and i am not quite sure where to being. Well i think that maybe starting with the obvious would be a good thing, i am almost two months out of Mcleans OCDI and i am feeling really great in terms of the OCD. I have been having very few problems with the symptoms and alot of it has to do with keeping the routine that i did in the hospital. i am still using a timer in the shower and that has been helping me alot when it comes to keeping the rituals really close to zero when it comes to using the shower in the morning.
next thing i guess that is worth talking about is the fact that i am applying for a psychiatric service dog. i am excited about it and nervous about it. in the beginning i wasn't so accepting about applying for one because i didn't want to admit that my psychiatric issues were severe enough to place me in a category where adding one to my treatment would be beneficial. i haven't talked about this much and have been very silent about it. in college i was in a physically and psychologically abusive relationship, and luckily it didn't last long. however it lasted long enough to do severe damage cause PTSD with flashbacks. not six months after that relationship i had just returned from a night chemistry class when i found myself with a drunk football player breaking into my my on campus apartment with one thing on his mind. That ended with a failed sexual assault on his part and a broken foot as a parting gift as i finally beat him out of my on campus apartment. again pile on the PTSD and flashbacks. flash forward to OCDI and i am in a flashback and one of my favorite counselors is trying to reach me unfortunately it was a male counselor and in the process i am not able to recognize him, he puts a hand on my shoulder and he narrowly escapes me trying to punch him as i retreat into the back corner of my room. guess that counts as severe enough... for my friends that read this i don't want a flood of calls or a whole ton of texts. i will talk to you about this when i am ready. i am just putting this out there, giving it to my blog to hold.
in other areas i just found out that i have lost some hearing in my left ear. i am not sure how or when but i have. so i am dealing with that.
just looked at the clock time for me to go i will write again later when i feel up to it.
