so there is a compulsion that comes out from time to time that i never act upon but have a strong urge to and that is to cut things. i will give examples. if i am working in the lab cutting pipette tips i will have the urge to snip my ear bud wires, or a power cable, or my hair. Lately it has been the charging cables in my car and the ear buds.
lately when i have been getting angry i feel like breaking something. i don't and haven't but i wonder what it would feel like if i did. strange huh?
well in other news i am getting my tattoo tonight which is somthing that i have been working towards for over a year now. it is really important to me. they are both symbols that remind me of important things. the first is an infinity symbol which reminds me that all things in life are intertwined, and that i will see my mother and my maternal grandmother in the next life and the trinity knot which represents the three promises my husband made to me by giving me my engagement ring with two trinity knots on it. the reason i am getting them tattooed is because i have to get MRI scans done every 6-12 months to monitor demylenation in my brain. and i can't ever take these symbols in with me to protect me during the scan (superstitious i know but any port in a storm right) so now i will always have these symbols with me to protect me when i am in one of the loneliest places in the world.
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