Trying to stabilize and feeling like a zombie in the process

So part of the process of reaching out for me is recognizing that there is a chemical imbalance in my brain that needs alittle help getting adjusted I have come to the conclusion through the years of depression that there is nothing wring with taking medication as prescribed to help you out if your body isn't producing the appropriate levels of chemicals in your brain for example. If you disagree that is fine you are entitled to your opinion and I am entitled to manage my medical care as I see fit. That being said I am one of the many people on psychiatric drugs that is sensitive to minor changes in rising and finds gentle titrations up to higher doses a more tolerable approach. However I am currently in a state that a jumper to anhigher dose was more appropriate than the gentle technique. I will share that I was having very bad issues with paranoia- I had a grocery shopping exposure turn into an utter nnightmare where I was convinced someone knew my husband was going to be out for the evening and try to hurt me or worse. I was actually driving with my little mace in one hand my steering wheel in the other and my cellphone charging in my lap. It was super bad. I called a good friend and she came over and stayed with me until my husband came home which was a god send. She is a true blessing. So as you can see I am really in a bad place. So with this jump in medication I have been feeling like a zombie! All cloudy and somewhere else like day dreaming without the dreaming it is a sensation I haven't felt in a very Long time. Part of the problem is that I am also stepping up on my mgraine medication with has a sedatig effect on me you will have to excuse typos I al doing this from my small touch screen before bed. I wish I could take FMLA right now and get my mental Healy in order but I am not so sure it is in the cards. I need to ge ME in order first and for most and I have to figure out how to go about doing that